You may have noticed I've been a bit quiet the last week or two - I felt like I'd hit a bit of a writer's block. Or perhaps a 'life block' would be a bit more accurate, and I feel it's time for a bit of an update on where I am going!
This blog has been a reflection of my gluten free journey and my life the last six years - scrimping and saving as a student, travelling to far off countries, enjoying (many) delicious treats, discovering new gluten free goodies and learning to love and embrace fitness into my life - even completing my 16 week body transformation.
But since my photoshoot I've felt a little lost. I went straight on holiday and then came down with a virus for about six weeks - with that and Christmas - and then becoming ill again recently - it completely threw me off course.
Now it's suddenly six months later, I'm back eating all sorts of 'naughty' foods (and way too much pizza - like, I seriously might be addicted), training has subsided to almost nothing and I'm not really sure what my goal is anymore.
But there's no excuse for it. There have been some fairly major and exciting projects and challenges going on in my personal life and I've chosen to prioritise these over my health.
So what am I going to do about it?
I need to start putting my health first - and that means sorting a few things out. My thyroid has been playing up over the last six months (at least) and I've finally found a GP who I think will actually help me to find out what's going on. I need to get this stabilised and sorted - it's been over six years since my partial thyroidectomy and it's ridiculous I am still letting this go on. NB - look out for a proper thyroid update soon when and if I do get anywhere with this!
I also need to stop training for looks and work on training for fitness and strength. I LOVED my photoshoot prep and I fully intend on setting some bigger aesthetic challenges (I have a goal in mind, but don't want to share yet as I need to get my health on track first!) for next year, but for now I need to show my body some TLC.
Since my prep finished I never reverse dieted properly and I've been swaying constantly from a calorie deficit to bingeing. I feel like my metabolism is ruined, and I need some consistent eating at a maintenance calorie level to nurse it back to health before I can even consider dieting down again. And in the meantime, I intend to put those extra calories to good use and really try build some strength and muscle, and see if I can feel a bit more energised.
So with that in mind, I'm telling myself enough is enough, and I'm hoping you guys will hold me accountable! I want to enjoy life and enjoy food but it has to be in moderation - living by an 80/20 rule in favour of health, rather than the other way around.
I can't wait to share the next stage of my journey with you all (don't worry, there will still be plenty on the latest gluten free treats - though you may need to test some of them for me!). If anyone else is on a bit of a health or fitness related journey I'd love to hear all about it! Please comment below, tweet me or follow me on Facebook and Instagram!